Monday, February 22, 2010
update from Stuff by Sammi blog
on a better note.. last weeks IVF procedures went quite well and we ended up with one blastocyst (5 day old embryo with over 100 cells) .... which was transferred on Saturday... and now we just wait and pray that this little one sticks around! I Have a pregnancy test on 3 March.... not sure I can wait that long without exploding! lol
Sunday, February 14, 2010
from Stuff by Sammi
Well I think I might not be crafting for a few days... but we'll see what happens... tomorrow morning I have the egg collection for the IVF/ ICSI (finally - so glad to have no more injections for now) and guess I will sleep for a bit in the afternoon AND that's when the waiting (and hoping) begins again! Not sure when I will feel like crafting OR when Mr Mojo will return. Thanks for stopping by! :D
Friday, January 1, 2010
Welcoming in the New Year
(originally posted on Stuff by Sammi)
2009/ 2010
Well I cannot believe it's another year! Although I am pleased... I was really looking forward to a new year, new beginnings are mostly always good :) I thought I'd do a post about 2009/ 2010...
Overall I was thinking that last year was pretty bad but my lovely husband reminded me of our blessings and of some very good things too.... so I thought I'd put down a bit of a summary (for me and others if they care to read on).
Lowlights (there is one main theme that overshadows the year):
x finding out early in the year that we would not be able to conceive children without medical intervention (IVF/ ICSI). :( :( :(
x more headaches and being continually run-down/ stressed.
x undergoing two separate rounds of IVF treatment.... which was both physically and emotionally difficult... losing our precious little embryo each time as both did not implant.(I will write more on this topic at another stage as it is still hard to think and talk about).
x seeing other friends suffer.
Highlights:
♥ Due to the generosity of Guy's Uncle Jacques (who sadly passed away late 2008) we were able to pay off our homeloan and thus I was able to stop working (which is lovely as I was quite stressed).... not working has cut down my stress levels abundantly!
♥ The love and support of family and friends throughout the year.
♥ Our annual trip to Adelaide to visit some very close friends.
♥ A great bible study group!
♥ turning 30 ... and despite the fact that I was dreading it and really not feeling like celebrating anything at that point in time - being spoilt by friends and family.... including having very good friends come to stay for the weekend!
♥ a WONDERFUL holiday to Lord Howe Island with my gorgeous hubby!
♥ meeting many wonderful ladies on an IVF forum + meeting one of them twice during the year.
♥ being chosen to be on the Stamp Spot Design Team along with 4 other wonderfully talented ladies - Thanks Marcia!
♥ the wonderful community of bloggers - and the many great friendships that have developed with other people online! THANKS to all of you! :D
What I'm Looking forward to this year...
* continuing friendships both off and online.
* making lots and lots of cards ... blogging each day (hopefully).
* doing one more cycle of IVF (probably in Feb).
* Bible study + church
* spending time with Guy
* Wii Fit and my personal trainer on the Wii ... ie. losing weight
Overall I am thankful to God and confident that despite what happens - He holds us safe in his hands and has a great plan!
Praise Him!!
2009/ 2010
Well I cannot believe it's another year! Although I am pleased... I was really looking forward to a new year, new beginnings are mostly always good :) I thought I'd do a post about 2009/ 2010...
Overall I was thinking that last year was pretty bad but my lovely husband reminded me of our blessings and of some very good things too.... so I thought I'd put down a bit of a summary (for me and others if they care to read on).
Lowlights (there is one main theme that overshadows the year):
x finding out early in the year that we would not be able to conceive children without medical intervention (IVF/ ICSI). :( :( :(
x more headaches and being continually run-down/ stressed.
x undergoing two separate rounds of IVF treatment.... which was both physically and emotionally difficult... losing our precious little embryo each time as both did not implant.(I will write more on this topic at another stage as it is still hard to think and talk about).
x seeing other friends suffer.
Highlights:
♥ Due to the generosity of Guy's Uncle Jacques (who sadly passed away late 2008) we were able to pay off our homeloan and thus I was able to stop working (which is lovely as I was quite stressed).... not working has cut down my stress levels abundantly!
♥ The love and support of family and friends throughout the year.
♥ Our annual trip to Adelaide to visit some very close friends.
♥ A great bible study group!
♥ turning 30 ... and despite the fact that I was dreading it and really not feeling like celebrating anything at that point in time - being spoilt by friends and family.... including having very good friends come to stay for the weekend!
♥ a WONDERFUL holiday to Lord Howe Island with my gorgeous hubby!
♥ meeting many wonderful ladies on an IVF forum + meeting one of them twice during the year.
♥ being chosen to be on the Stamp Spot Design Team along with 4 other wonderfully talented ladies - Thanks Marcia!
♥ the wonderful community of bloggers - and the many great friendships that have developed with other people online! THANKS to all of you! :D
What I'm Looking forward to this year...
* continuing friendships both off and online.
* making lots and lots of cards ... blogging each day (hopefully).
* doing one more cycle of IVF (probably in Feb).
* Bible study + church
* spending time with Guy
* Wii Fit and my personal trainer on the Wii ... ie. losing weight
Overall I am thankful to God and confident that despite what happens - He holds us safe in his hands and has a great plan!
Praise Him!!
Monday, July 6, 2009
Infertility?
post from old blog of mine - 06 July 2009
Have been struggling with this issue for some time now.... I am not infertile.. although I consider that I am as I consider "us = one".. therefore "we are infertile" ... after finding out that we could not have kids 'naturally' in March- I was shattered! there's like about a 1% chance we would be able to conceive naurally... the gyneacologist recommended IVF.... ICSI as the the only way we could conceive.
Even now.. it's difficult to discuss.. unless I go straight to facts and figures and clinical speaking... I guess ever since I was a young girl I imagined being a mum, bringing up children... The idea that it might never happen is kind of hard to swallow... I never really understood why people go through IVF.. why not just adopt. there are plenty of poor unloved children in the world... they need looking after, however it's not that easy.... Adoption in Australia = VARY rare / long waiting list etc etc.... adoption o/s - very expensive and difficult.
Have been struggling with this issue for some time now.... I am not infertile.. although I consider that I am as I consider "us = one".. therefore "we are infertile" ... after finding out that we could not have kids 'naturally' in March- I was shattered! there's like about a 1% chance we would be able to conceive naurally... the gyneacologist recommended IVF.... ICSI as the the only way we could conceive.
Even now.. it's difficult to discuss.. unless I go straight to facts and figures and clinical speaking... I guess ever since I was a young girl I imagined being a mum, bringing up children... The idea that it might never happen is kind of hard to swallow... I never really understood why people go through IVF.. why not just adopt. there are plenty of poor unloved children in the world... they need looking after, however it's not that easy.... Adoption in Australia = VARY rare / long waiting list etc etc.... adoption o/s - very expensive and difficult.
Friday, March 13, 2009
Contentment
post from an old blog - 13/3/09
Well It has been some time since I used this blog...as I have been engrossed in my craft blog and my stamps and drawing and meeting people all over the place over the internet.... It's a wonderful way of sharing lives... and hopefully good for sharing the good news and hope I have in Jesus too!
So ... Why am I writing here again.. .well I am going to use it as an online journal.... just to get my thoughts out ... write down what I'm thinking and feeling and working through.... I am pretty bad at opening up and this is to help me get better at it and get real. a small start.
It's been a rather difficult week for me....
1. Contentment talk.... opened up to me that I do often look for contentment in my circumstances, ie... I am so sick of being tired, having LOWER than LOW energy levels, having headaches constantly.... not being "normal". This is not all bad discontentment I am sure as I want to be able to serve God MORE - I want to be able to do more ministry - they are not bad things to want... but still - I know that I can only do what I can...
My contentment is in Jesus... It is SOOO wonderful and wonderous and humbling... that he gave up his place in Heaven.. his comfort and position to come to earth to live and die and take the judgement I deserve for telling God to keep out.
2. I have a deep desire to have kids... it is deeply engrained in me (and I believe in most women) .... I do not want them above my desire for God... I would that God called me home today ... that Jesus would return (except that I do not want him to return until more people know him) ... oh - I do understand Paul's "torn-ness".
It's just that I have never imagined a life without children....
Well It has been some time since I used this blog...as I have been engrossed in my craft blog and my stamps and drawing and meeting people all over the place over the internet.... It's a wonderful way of sharing lives... and hopefully good for sharing the good news and hope I have in Jesus too!
So ... Why am I writing here again.. .well I am going to use it as an online journal.... just to get my thoughts out ... write down what I'm thinking and feeling and working through.... I am pretty bad at opening up and this is to help me get better at it and get real. a small start.
It's been a rather difficult week for me....
1. Contentment talk.... opened up to me that I do often look for contentment in my circumstances, ie... I am so sick of being tired, having LOWER than LOW energy levels, having headaches constantly.... not being "normal". This is not all bad discontentment I am sure as I want to be able to serve God MORE - I want to be able to do more ministry - they are not bad things to want... but still - I know that I can only do what I can...
My contentment is in Jesus... It is SOOO wonderful and wonderous and humbling... that he gave up his place in Heaven.. his comfort and position to come to earth to live and die and take the judgement I deserve for telling God to keep out.
2. I have a deep desire to have kids... it is deeply engrained in me (and I believe in most women) .... I do not want them above my desire for God... I would that God called me home today ... that Jesus would return (except that I do not want him to return until more people know him) ... oh - I do understand Paul's "torn-ness".
It's just that I have never imagined a life without children....
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