Anticipation

Well it's ALMOST time to start IVF again.. tomorrow I go into the clinic for my day 1 blood test. I spoke with a nurse today who said show up for morning clinic tomorrow.. which is between 7am and 9am - so the trips into the city will start again. The waiting will start again.

I'm feeling a little apprehensive, I'm feeling hopeful and excited, I'm praying that this time will be the time that works, where we might be blessed with a little miracle! Please Lord!

Thinking about the prospect of waiting again, I'm reminded it is a good lesson for waiting upon the LORD and hoping in him. I do hope that we will have a child but ultimately whether we do or don't my hope is in the Lord and waiting on his return. I would like to think I will remember this amidst the frustration of waiting. Many times in my life I've thought that I am a rather patient person... but life keeps showing me that I am far from a patient person!!!

More encouragement from Psalm 39, verses 4 & 5

4  " Oh Lord, make me know my end and what is the measure of my days ; let me know how fleeting I am!" 5 "Behold you have made my days a few handbreadths and my lifetime is nothing before you. Surely all mankind stands as a mere breath!"

What seems like forever in these moments and days and weeks of waiting is nothing in the light of eternity. What seems to matter so dearly now living on this earth will one day seem so tiny!